Awww, ok so I'm watching Dancing with the Stars and I'm not a fan of Jerry Springer but this week is the waltz and it's the sweetest thing... He's working so hard this week because his daughter is getting married and he's going to waltz with her at her wedding. He's doing it for his daughter, it's sweet. As much as I don't like Jerry Springer, I am totally {can't think of the word anymore} by his committment to his daughter.

*sigh* Growing up, this is killing me... I'm having a mid-mid-life crisis because of a person!! Grrrr... I've got people telling me things about someone from when I was a kid that I've known forever and used to like, ok so he was the closest thing I've ever had to a real boyfriend but because neither of us were allowed to nor wanted to date, we were just kind of yeah... But now I guess when he gets back from Iraq he wants to go to Fox and be an engineer, which is cool because we've got a great program... And he says it's what God wants him to do, so that's cool too. I just, I don't know if he knows I go there, or if he's still single because he's holding out for me or what because when we were younger, he wanted to marry me... Granted, I found this out from other people in his family who didn't want him to, so... Ok his younger sister did but... Anyway, so I had a dream about him the other day, mind you this was after I asked God AGAIN about it, and in the dream he asked me to marry him... Well, I really don't know if I'm just dense and can't hear the answer or if I already know the answer and hope that I don't, or... Keep in mind, I've been asking about this person for YEARS now... Everytime I see him he makes it a point to lock eyes with me, even if I'm not looking at him, and I saw him a couple years ago before he left, from a distance, and it made me melt and I don't know why. And some people want me to marry him, and tell me, and some people don't because they've got a skewed story of what happened with his family and here I am trying to remain a neutral party because I have two stories about what happened and don't know which, if any, are true... And... Grrrrrrrr, I'm just afraid that my whole day yesterday was something that I want so badly for it to be, but only if it's really what God wants... So, pray that I hear something, or someone confirms or denies something or something because I AM GOING CRAZY!!!

So I got the box to send my chassis back, it's freaking HUGE. Two, my name is NOT Mark Allen!! Oh well. So they're going to "fix" the chassis, I'm pretty sure they're just going to say scrap it and give her a new one, but whatever. Gr, I'm home for the three-day weekend, joy. Anyway, if you've talked to me recently in depth you know my current state of mind/being/whatever, two people in particular I know of know what I'm talking about. Anyhow, I'm off to wait for people or something 'cos I'm not knowing what to do... :-S