... in a bag!
I came home to this bag, sitting on my stoop, in front of my door. At first, I honestly had no clue as to what it was, why, or what-have-you. However, as soon as I approached, and peeked in, it all hit me... like a hurricane.
I went through a sense of shock and disbelief. While I should/could have seen it coming, I honestly expected "more" from him...
I immediately found myself on the phone to a dear friend, and soon found myself sitting on the porch, taking a deep breath, and reading through the enclosed letter... then finding myself in utter dismay, complete disgust, and more raging anger than I could even begin to explain.
there's more where that came from...
yeah... so, uh... Happy 4th of July, to you too!
In the end, I'm where I've always been (at least for the last 2 months)... not much is changed by this. Just a larger realization that he's not fully understanding the totality of the circumstances... and that's more sad than anything else. I'll continue to care ('cause that's what I do). I'll continue to pray (for the best for him). I'll continue to move forward (as I have been... since before he even knows of)!
A bit of irony/comical insight: I seemingly don't even rate a "Relationship" Box... nope, I've been reduced to a mere brown paper bag!
oh, and I can't help but think-of/sing-in-my-head Kelly Clarkson's Never Again
...enough already!
scribbled by
manky @ 17:41:32
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there's more where that came from...
after an interesting evening involving fun pre-4th parties, unexpected encounters & revelations, and all that jazz... I found myself well into another late-night/early-morning with Aaron & the Vandes. We were at the Griffin's, playing SmashBros?
Anywho, point being, I got my hands on Matt's iPhone, and tried the whole snap an SP thing (again). It's honestly pretty annoyingly difficult to get it to stay steady enough to properly focus, and then assure that you're clicking the touch screen right, Grr!
Finally got a couple shots I liked, and kept about my geeking out by getting online (with the iPhone), figuring out my flickr direct-post-email, emailing/uploading the pics, and then I even got to see them on flickr... tagging, adding to the right groups & sets, etc.
I tried to share the excitement with those around me... I think only Mathys took in even a breath of my yay-ness... *sigh* oh well!
Since I won't be getting my own iPhone within the next 2 years, if ever (unless I win some system and service) it made the moment for me. Thanx Mr. Mateo!
...enough already! scribbled by
manky @ 2:51:08
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