Arg!
I find this strange confusion within myself when it comes to my 'tech support' availability to others. One piece of me likes to ability to be helpful, show my smarts, and tackle a confusing case. The other part of me, can get greatly frustrated when I feel like perhaps people figure I obviously have nothing better to do than spend the next hour and a half walking them through something (online and/or over the phone.) *trying to breathe*
I thrive on human interaction, but when my own agenda is interupted for purely fix-it need... I honestly wonder if I'd even be getting this interaction otherwise. Were you going to actually talk to me this evening? Did you say to yourself, 'I wonder how Amancay is doing? I should give her a chatty call!' My guess: probably not!
Then I step back, and say... you know what? What is more important? My time to myself... for whatever meaningless things I might have prospectively planned for the hour? or my investment into relationship, serving, and just being there for someone? I'm humbled by my own gurgling selfishness... what's that about? So not how I like to function, not what I stand for.
So... if you have confusing tech needs, I'm your geek. VCR programming, DVR setting, IM icons, internet confusion, cell phone synching, and anything else you can toss my way. I don't turn my phone off... so, Bring it on! Sure beats the midnight calls I used to get.
And, um... I'm sorry if I've ever given your the brush off because my percieved notion of importance was askew. My bad... call me on it! I'll be trying...
*begins the process all over again*
