10 bands/artists you've been listening to a lot lately:

1. Mae
   
2. Nichole Nordeman
   
3. Chris Rice
   
4. DJ Maj
   
5. Bethany Dillon
   
6. Bebo Norman
   
7. Shawn McDonald
   
8. Jeremy Camp
   
9. RelientK
   
10. David Crowder* Band

09 things you look forward to (in no particular order):

1. Heaven
   
2. marriage
   
3. kids
   
4. summer
   
5. swimming
   
6. working again
   
7. being beautiful
   
8. women's bible study
   
9. the pursuit

08 things you like to wear:

1. a tiara
   
2. skirts
   
3. monkey pajamas
   
4. my pink fuzzy robe
   
5. Torrid tanks
   
6. Old Navy perfect-fit long-sleeve stretch tees
   
7. Birkenstocks
   
8. fabulous socks

07 things that annoy you:

1. my mind
   
2. my emotions
   
3. people who don't understand me, yet think they can judge anyway
   
4. being late
   
5. lack of communication
   
6. hypocrisy
   
7. interrupting

06 things you say most days:

1. bless you!
   
2. it's all good!
   
3. it's okay...
   
4. *growl*
   
5. I love my/our church!
   
6. how was your day?

05 things you do everyday:

1. pray
   
2. sing (even if it's just in my head)
   
3. pee
   
4. drink tea
   
5. look at my phone, wishing it would ring...

04 people you want to spend more time with:

1. jonathan
   
2. sara
   
3. elizabeth
   
4. oma

03 movies you could watch over and over again:

1. 13 Going On 30
   
2. From Justin To Kelly
   
3. Annie

02 of your favorite songs at the moment:

1. Banana Pancakes
   
2. The Ocean

01 place you could spend the rest of your life:

1. in his arms...

what with a whole shebang of people wandering around doing anything but all that!

I'm talking well-meaning God lovin'/fearin' folk, peoples! the real deal... as humans, fallible mammals of the upright walking persuasion, we lean more toward the screwed up, making life all suffering for those around us...

*sigh* maybe I simply expect too much, from myself, and from everyone else... I'm just downright tired exhausted of all the drain that comes from giving people chance after chance to truly let me down!

so how do I then turn around, and allow Him to be my true Sustainer? when I don't even understand what that looks like... can't I get but a simple glimpse?