unable to speak... or even really think clearly about things; i tend to sing songs that cover the wound/need. whether actually aloud, or just over & over in my head... it seems to hold me through tough[er] times!

aside from the fact that we talked muchly about it yesterday... I couldn't help but notice the vast majority of dandelions outside the storage unit just now, as my mind quickly noted & prayed,

"Lord, search my heart, create in me something clean.
Dandelions; you see flowers in these weeds..." - Five Iron Frenzy * Dandelions

still feeling like my words wiggle their way up to the sky... through the mass clouds... and into a non-functional vapor that doesn't ever get anywhere... Lord, do you hear me?

"Oh great God, be small enough to hear me now
There were times when I was crying from the dark of Daniel’s den
I had asked you once or twice if you would part the sea again
Tonight I do not need a fiery pillar in the sky
Just want to know you’re gonnah hold me if I start to cry

"Oh great God, be small enough to hear me now
Oh great God be close enough to feel you now
[Oh great god be close to me]
There have been moments when I could not face Goliath on my own
And how could I forget we marched around our share of Jerichos
But I will not be setting out a fleece for you tonight
Just wanna know that everything will be alright
Oh great god, be close enough to feel me now

"All praise and all the honor be to the god of ancient mysteries
Whose every sign and wonder turn the pages of our history
But tonight my heart is heavy and I cannot keep from whispering this prayer
Are you there?

"And I know you could leave writing on the wall that’s just for me
Or send wisdom while I’m sleeping, like in Solomon’s sweet dreams
But I don’t need the strength of Sampson or a chariot in the end
Just wanna know that you still know how many hairs are on my head
Oh great God, [Are you small enough] be small enough to hear me now - Nichole Nordeman & Fernando Ortega * Small Enough