1. Berry: Medley

2. Fiendish: fervor for yarn & tea

3. Bar: none

4. Frank: truth... brusk, harsh

5. Bend: push, squeeze, manipulate, and shove!?

6. Fanatic: over intense

7. Belch: well... and get an, "Amen!"

8. Flagrant: ab-fab

9. Burden: a bother

10. Flimsy: friendships

[no particular other thought]

So, yesterday I was working [hardcore, have been] and stopped in at our local Slaveway to get a client their groceries. Popped in, momentarily, at the Rich-Wimmer home to have a breakdown along the way... but kept on truckin' wiping away all noticeable tears along the way!

Got most shopping done, poked my head in on Annie's aisle as I walked by... even stopped to say hey to miss December and treat myself to a nice ToffeeNut Latte, after all I deserved it at that point!

Latte and semi-smile in hand I grabbed a couple things at the end and tracked down Miss Griffin's checkout stand... I seriously thought I put on my good ol' fashioned amancay flare and got all u:ber excited to see her and stuff... but it must not have been up to snuff! As my groceries were begin put back into my cart to head out she looks me in the eye and asks rather puzzled, "Are you ok!?"
*getting the same flood of tears welling up I felt in that very moment*
All I could respond was a tight lipped, "Not really..."
"Is there anything I can do?" she asked with utmost sincerity, and a bit of futility in her voice due to the circumstances, for sure.
I shrugged, "You can pray" I suggested, and instinctively gave her a hug as we simultaneously said, "Bless you!"

wow...
*shrug* I mean, honestly... I hardly know the girl! Love her to death, and have wanted to get to know here over and over, especially since the family started coming to the Vineyard. I just never expected she'd be there at such a moment. God has perfectly planned timing, and sometimes I feel like I'm just wandering about aimlessly until I bump into a wall, back-up and semi-deviate my path... meanwhile He's there picking me up and placing me right in front of His purpose and hopes for me... *big heavy sigh*

So this afternoon, I glanced at my phone (having expected work to call my cell testing the caller id) and saw I'd missed a call & had a message to boot. *holds down 1 key* "Hi Amancay it's Annie..."
checking to see how my day went, hoping it was better then the one before... etc. ftr: I'm impressed! girl's got rule #1 down!

I called her back, thanked her greatly and broke the news that life is continuing along the path of hardship and destruction, tossing in people that just don't make it any easier. She was graciously encouraging me the whole time, and again offered herself for anything I might need. I would've jumped at a chance to sit and 'coffee', but I had work to finish up with mom, who was on her way to get me...

just thoughts, reflections, and joys, amidst it all

19. I've never had surgery.
20. I like to just stand in the shower and let the hot water run.
21. I carry cute little purses.
22. I think marriage is in my future, and I do want kids.
23. I want to own my own home one day.
24. I rely whole-heartedly on my cell phone
25. I don't read as much as I used to.
26. I have a certain hankering for a particular man's scent...
27. I can't drink colas, makes me feel like the enamel is being scraped off of my teeth.
28. I'm not usually picky about the bed I sleep in.
29. I'm awful at picking up after myself.
30. I would enjoy a vacation to someplace warm.
31. People scare me.
32. I am not the same person I was 5 years ago.
33. I wish some of my closest friends didn't live so far away.
34. I really need to exercise more.
35. I can sing... hold my own, perhaps even knock your socks off, if given the opportunity!
35. I sing in the car all the time
36. I love to cook for others.
37. I'm tired of "living on my own."
38. I'm a tea fiend.
39. Leisure time is important to me. I hate stressing out.
41. I love the world as a whole, without country borders to qualify it.
42. I love to read.
43. I never actually went to college.
44. I love eating out.
45. I love pizza.
46. I've worn the same earrings for over 3 years.
47. I'm learning to take care of myself.
48. Some of my scars are light, instead of dark.
49. I try to e-mail people back when they comment on my blog.
50. I want to travel...
51. I have good lettering/handwriting
52. I prefer to have little to nothing to pay the government, or have them pay me, at the end of the year... that way I don't feel like they've had access to my money all year, while I could have been using it and/or earning interest!

I've looked into it (way too concerned/bored) and I'm gonna now do the other parts that somehow got omitted, by working my way back through the previous peoples... bringing completion back to the list!

1. I am more self-conscious then I let on.
2. I call soda so many different things, it depends on the moment or situation.
3. I love being surrounded by peoples.
4. I have a thing for pens.
5. I think the color red is oft underrated.
6. I love it when I've learned something new about coding or designing that was previously a challenge to me. Gives me a sense of accomplishment.
7. I'm a stickler about using the actual HTML for lists rather just using line breaks and entering the numbers by hand.
8. I use the word "home" to refer to a variety of locations.
9. I'm not in love right now.
10. I feel anything but fine right now.
11. I don't wear glasses or contacts. I have perfect vision.
12. I have a cat.
13. My favorite movies and TV shows could be considered "guilty pleasures."
14. I'm losing hair.
15. I buy, sell, and peruse eBay.
16. I actually like some screaming songs.
17. I am pretty content with my job.
18. I hadn't been to the dentist in four years... until recent emergency situations.
40. I need to think less.