sadly enough, it's time to return to what was. Er, um, kinda sorta. I at least know that God has me in a constant molding... and is specifically addresses some things in my life and how I deal with/confront them. But what I'm getting at is actually more of the "big picture" of reality as we experience it as a group of christians, brothers & sisters, a body in Christ. You see, I don't get the warm fuzzy sensation that we've created this amazing bond with each other. In fact, if anything, it's only made it more abundantly clear that no matter how hard I attempt to convince myself that I am "one" of "the gang"... I'm not!
Am I falling apart over that? Not really, at least... not yet. At the moment I'm still in my "it's their loss" stage... 'cause who would ever want to live their life without my magic whim every once in a while. Not to mention my smile, my laugh, and my beautiful voice! (ok, so maybe I started out semi-sarcastic in all that... but it's all truth! I need to re-claim that over myself and my life!) God made me infectiously fun and exciting. "I pity the fool!" who would pass that up out of spite, miscommunication, pride, or even fear of the unknown...
On a positive note: I do have a great group of people who constantly surround me with love, compassion, understanding, encouragement, exhortation, and true kinship! It is in these relationships that I choose to place my focus, my heart, and my precious time. My God bless you all, and move in your hearts to love all those around you unconditionally!
and remember... "be wise!"
