I started out this day (er yesterday, why do I always arrive to post after midnight?)... with a desperate cry out for help. Filled with negativity, stress, and inexplicable tensity, I didn't know where to turn other than to look forward to the evening's Youth Service.
Just on some background. I haven't been to, nor involved with to a certain extent, Youth in an extremely long while. Now that our home group has finished, with a mandate to disburse, it is time to look into stepping out into the ministry he has called us each to individually. Whether I want to admit it yet or not, God has always burdened my heart for the youth (even when I was one myself. So I had to at least give it a chance, weigh the waters, and let God speak. Plus in talking with Dawn about where God's leading me, she confirmed it with, "Have you thought about the Youth?"
So here I am, excited as ever, to worship, hear God's Word, and simply sit back and observe God's moving at this moment.
Never am I allowed to simply be a spectator, am I God? One thing I can tell you for sure, I am no longer under that horrid weight of spiritual deception, depression, and anxiety. God is good.
He said to kick it up a notch, spiritually! I say, in the famous words of Alicia Beckman, "Bring it!

  scribbled by manky @ 0:50:46
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